I Am Thankful
I am thankful. These words have begun so many blog posts, Instagram posts, and Facebook posts over the years. I am thankful. For the past seven years or more, I have made it a habit in November to write about the things the Lord has given me. Some days the words roll off the tongue and some days I labor over them, but still I am thankful.
The usual: my family, my friends, my kids, my church. Those are easy—even rote. Then there are the sillier ones: donuts, McDonalds Diet Coke, crafting. Easy peasy. But when He takes me deeper it gets more difficult. It starts to hurt a little. Am I really thankful for eleven years in a rental house; am I really thankful for the pain of losing loved ones? But in his gentle way, the Lord reminds me that He works all things for my good and his glory, and I am thankful.
This year was the hardest yet. There is a turbulence in the force, an atmosphere charged with hate and worry. But still I am thankful. He calls me to be anxious for nothing. In a world of surface relationships, a world of 144 character quips and knowing only one’s "Facebook life," He calls me into something more. He invites me to be known. Being known is terrifying. In this scary, inhospitable world, I am known by the one who created it and I am thankful.
I am thankful for the Lord's unending love. I am thankful that He calls me out upon the water and that He won't abandon me to the waves. I am thankful that He controls the world around me, no matter how chaotic it feels. I'm thankful that He is my high tower; He is my strength; He is my hope. I am thankful that despite my always changing internal and external circumstances, my God is unchanging. He is my rock, my firm foundation.
So I walk into Thanksgiving week; my heart filled with gratitude. My life swirls in a whirlwind of homeschooling and cleaning and keeping my kids alive. There is teen drama and tween drama and baby drama, not to mention ME drama. A million things threaten to keep my eyes off of the Lord, but I won't give up, I won't give in to the pull of the enemy. I am confident in my God. I am confident in the good things He has for me.