The Father's Love
by Kelly Jo Barr
He knows your name. He has a plan and a purpose for your life. He hears your cries.
The following comes from my journal after Bible study, self-examination, and reading my evening devotional:
But He knows where I am going. And when He has tested me like gold in a fire, He will pronounce me innocent. Job 23:10
I want to be pronounced innocent. Perhaps, if I were, I could be married. But then, why do I feel that I am not? Why do I continue to allow my past to creep in and consume my thoughts about the present? I think, in some small part of me, that I am not worthy of anyone’s love. I think this because, why would I still be single if I was worthy? Those are horrible thoughts to live by. I remember a promise He gave me. I continually remind myself of his promise that I will hold a child I have birthed in my arms. Maybe I was just delusional? A wanton thought or an imagined answer to what I was crying out for? The Good Lord sure does take His sweet ol’ time… (sigh) Sometimes I feel like I’m doing this all alone. How appropriate I found the title of my evening devotional: KNOWING OUR NEEDS - AND MEETING THEM, along with the verse for the day: The LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.” So the LORD God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and He took one of the man’s ribs. Then the LORD God made a woman from the rib. Genesis 2:18, 21-22
God, You never cease to amaze me with Your answers. Every time I question, You are there. I thank You for that. I NEED You for that. You are beautiful and You are kind and You are sweet. Blessed be Your name.
I share this for those who, too, have been waiting for God to answer a prayer. And maybe, like me, you’ve been waiting well over a decade. As He reminded me, I will remind you: He hears. Engage in the holy habits—keep asking, keep knocking, and keep seeking. He knows your heart’s desire.
Live free. Be blessed. And die often.